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I can't believe what just happened. My mum thinks she knows me, my mom thinks i'm a lesbian and that i'm lying to myself. She is my mother and she doesn't know me at all, but i always knew that...All my life i was acting, acting i was more manly, acting i was rough so many years that i'm almost becoming like a man. but, all that time i was acting...

because, i saw she liked me more when i'm not so girly, she 

people are nicer, i never wanted to be someone with whom they will compete. and i'm crying now. who else thinks i'm a lesbian? my mother says i'm lying to myself...but i love men! i LOVE LOVE men. i love everything about them, i feel butterflies..i don't feel anything toward girls.

i was acting all my life, i was trying just for them to be nicer to me 

i just wanted to people around me be nice to me

now i see, even mom realize i am not a lesbian. she somehow understood what Marijana wants about me, and she see that i don't want that. She never knew me, i always knew that...

All my life i was hiding...just to be nice to me. Not to be competition. I speak more rough with Milica, just not to be someone to be jelaous at, someone..i don't know. 

This is so hard. I had to said this, it's much easier to me now.

Now you know. This is so hard.

:)))) ice cream seller, it's nice.  :) Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeiy

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i'm just yours.

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I can't go without you. I give up of everything if you want

Do you realize i'm gonna rape you sooner or later? I'm gonna EAT you. You are so cute. 

You are adorable. I worship the ground you walk on.  I adore you.  

DO YOU REALIZE  

Kakva muka, samo vi o njoj mislite! Ona meni nije nista. ''Muko moja predji na drugoga'' nema veze s mozgom. :D:D:D:D:D boze . sto pre shvatite da od toga nema 'leba pre cete se usredsrediti na nesto drugo.

pa vi ste sou :D kakva muka :D ja o njoj ni ne mislim  

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Pa znate da je ona stalno uzasna prema meni. To nikada ne moze d auradi neko ko voli ma iz kog razloga. Ne volim je, losa je osoba. Prosto, eto, izvinite ako sam stvarno uzasna, ali sta da radim, bolje je ovako nego da se druzimo na silu.

Zelim joj svu srecu, zdravlje i ljubav.  

She betraied me so many times and i have to be friends with her? even if she didn't do anything to me, i don't want to give her false hope, i don't have feeling towards her. and if you want to know i can love good people, what can i say 

I don't like her. And i am cruel why it would be more cruel if i were her false friend, be friend with her even if i don't like her

I see you now understand :)) :* she did bad to me so many times, i can't look at her 

Kao sto je Mira. Koliko god sam je ja volela, ona vise nije ista ona dobra i fina i normalna devojka sa kojom sam se druzila. Tacnije, jos uvek je sve to, ali, pocela je da se puci, dosli smo do toga, to jest ja sam dosla njoj je fino da se razgovara samo kratko i nebitno nesto, da razgovaramo samo povrsno i kroz smeh. Ne mogu tako da funkcionisem. Druzicu se jos sa njom, ali to je daleko od onoga ranije, i nije mi vise stalo...

Sada cu da trazim posao i da valjda steknem nove prijatelje.  A kada mi kupe tu garsonjeru, valjda ce poceti novi zivot. 

Sa Marijanom se nikada necu druziti pre svega IZ RAZLOGA JER JE LOSA OSOBA. Znate koliko me je puta izdala u osnovnoj i pre nekoliko godina citajuci moje uvrede u porukama mojim roditeljima? Ali, ona je nebitna, tako da to nije ni bitno.

Ona je prosto losa. Ne mogu sa njom. Mozete vi da mastate do sutra, ali od toga nema nista...

Upoznacu nove ljude valjda :)