Moji ljudi

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Htela to ili ne...Jednom kada nekog zavolis...Volim i nju i Milicu.

Samo, ja sam joj poslala poruku da se ponovo druzimo, i nista mi ne odgovara.

Koliko me je puta sredjivala uvece za izlazak...A KADA SMO KUPOVALI GRICKALICE I POSLE PLAZE JELE I SMEJALE SE U SOBI? 

Ona me i pobedjuje. Harizmaticnija je, ima vise energije, PUNA JE ENTUZIJAZMA, zivota, nasmejana, JA SAM PASIVNA, FLEGMATICNA, DOSADNA. nEMAM PREDSTAVU ZASTO VI MISLITE DA SAM JA NESTO POSEBNO...

Ona je zasluzila moje mesto. I nadam se da ce zauzeti.

Samo ne kod njega, to bi mi srce slomilo...

Sada, ne znam koja se njemu svidja? Nek se izjasni.  

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Today was my brother here, with his girlfriend Milica, my best friend. 

I'm so happy. Maybe i'll get an apartment. I'll take a roomate, and find a job.

I am so happy to have a friend like Milica <3333333333 She is my best friend, with her i am ME, i can talk eith her about EVRYTHING, she is my therapist. 

I lost many friends in my life, but i feel like she is award to me, for all that

I love her so much 

I can't believe how immature i was saying that i don't want children, first of all,to explain

I said that because i couldn't imagine anything! I knew nothing. Then, WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE, of course you want to have something of both of you. Of course i WANT to have children. I couldn't imagine...I said that because, to be honest...i imagined something terrible in my future. I couldnt imagine that i would love the father of my child. Even if i don't love i would lov children. But, the point is, I DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING. 

I can't believe what just happened. My mum thinks she knows me, my mom thinks i'm a lesbian and that i'm lying to myself. She is my mother and she doesn't know me at all, but i always knew that...All my life i was acting, acting i was more manly, acting i was rough so many years that i'm almost becoming like a man. but, all that time i was acting...

because, i saw she liked me more when i'm not so girly, she 

people are nicer, i never wanted to be someone with whom they will compete. and i'm crying now. who else thinks i'm a lesbian? my mother says i'm lying to myself...but i love men! i LOVE LOVE men. i love everything about them, i feel butterflies..i don't feel anything toward girls.

i was acting all my life, i was trying just for them to be nicer to me 

i just wanted to people around me be nice to me

now i see, even mom realize i am not a lesbian. she somehow understood what Marijana wants about me, and she see that i don't want that. She never knew me, i always knew that...

All my life i was hiding...just to be nice to me. Not to be competition. I speak more rough with Milica, just not to be someone to be jelaous at, someone..i don't know. 

This is so hard. I had to said this, it's much easier to me now.

Now you know. This is so hard.

:)))) ice cream seller, it's nice.  :) Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeiy

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i'm just yours.

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I can't go without you. I give up of everything if you want

Do you realize i'm gonna rape you sooner or later? I'm gonna EAT you. You are so cute. 

You are adorable. I worship the ground you walk on.  I adore you.  

DO YOU REALIZE